I’m aware that this is a topic that inflames opinions and passions. In order for me to explain my views it will be necessary to explain a bit about my background, and what has led me to believe the things I believe. I sincerely hope that you will stick with me to the end of the article and I hope it will be an interesting read.
Who Am I?
I’m a Christian, and have been following Jesus for about a decade. Before that I was very promiscuous spiritually and sexually.
As an atheist during my teenage years I had pretty much no regard for sexual morality. I wanted to have sex with beautiful women as much as possible. I was driven by lust and there was really nothing in my life that was inhibiting me from pursuing carnal pleasure at every opportunity. At university and then working in the music industry this kind of life seemed acceptable – there was no authority teaching me that my behaviour was destructive. Sex, drugs, and rock and roll were my life.
When I was about 20 years old, after watching my parents’ relationship fall apart, and my mother suffer from an aggressive form of cancer that would ultimately take her life, I started to question everything. I wanted to find out about suffering, about sickness, about spirituality, and about truth. My search for enlightenment had begun.
I was drawn to the New Age movement, and spent my days meditating and listening to spiritual teachers like Deepak Chopra, Alan Watts, Eckhart Tolle, Ramana Maharshi, and Mooji, among others. At one time I was drawn into a cult led by Ratu Bagus which involved a spiritual practice called ‘shaking meditation’ which ultimately left me feeling wrecked and hopeless. I was obsessed with Eastern religion and the ‘gurus’ who claimed to hold the key to enlightenment or self-realisation. I put my trust in these figures, believing that by following them I would find the peace of mind I desperately craved.
My mental health deteriorated and I started to experience psychosis. For years I was living in a state of confusion, a kind of dream world which eventually led to me acting strangely and crossing the boundaries of socially acceptable behaviour. I experienced panic attacks, deep depression, delusions, aggression, and I tried to kill myself, although I was so confused at the time that I wasn’t even aware of what I was doing.
You won’t be surprised to learn that I ended up in hospital. Not from the suicide attempt, but after a serious episode of psychosis that led to me attacking my housemate and then sleeping rough in south London for a few days. I was sectioned and taken to a psychiatric ward. This was in 2007.
During that first spell in psychiatric hospital, I asked a member of staff for a Bible. Even to this day I am still not sure what prompted me to do this, and judging by my experience as an atheist and adherent to New Age spirituality, it was a strange thing to do. But when I began to read passages of Scripture in my hospital room it was as though God was talking into my life circumstances and I was experiencing the reality of God and learning about His character for the first time.
Why Care What the Bible Says?
In order for us to truly believe in God, we need to experience some kind of revelation. For me this came through my experience of psychosis, which was very spiritual, and also from reading the Bible. For many people God is an empty idea that frustrates or even angers them, and I used to be that way myself. During my youth it seemed so irrational to me that there could be a God, because the veil had not been lifted, and the revelation had not yet come. It seemed as though there was no difference between believing in God and believing in fairies or flying spaghetti monsters (to use a phrase Richard Dawkins uses to ridicule believers).
But the Bible says “…seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” I was certainly seeking with my whole heart, and I believe that often when we are truly broken – after searching everywhere for truth and only finding heartbreak – that is the moment when God reveals Himself. This is what happened in my case.
Since that spell in hospital in 2007 the Lord has been with me and has never left me. I didn’t stop experiencing turbulent mental health, and I have questioned various aspects of the Christian faith, but through it all I experienced the peace and love of Jesus. The gospel made sense to me for the first time, and I began to enjoy a personal relationship with God, which is something that can’t be explained, only experienced.
The Bible is different to all other books. It is God’s chosen way of revealing Himself to humanity. We find within the pages of Scripture everything that we need to know in order to live a godly life. The Holy Spirit gave me a solid conviction that the Bible is infallible and inerrant, which I take to mean it is exactly as God intended it to be for the purposes He had and has in mind.
With God and the Bible firmly established at the centre of my life, I became a different person. When we fear God our approach to moral issues changes. We choose to seek God’s will in all matters, accepting His authority with humility, and trusting that He knows best. I put an end to sexual immorality after reading in Scripture that it displeases God.
If you are struggling with issues to do with sexuality and morality, I believe you will find the answers if you truly humble yourself and seek God’s will. Let’s look at a few passages from the Bible that are relevant to the subject of homosexuality, and then you can choose whether you want to obey God, or go your own way.
Leviticus 18:22 NLT
“Do not practice homosexuality, having sex with another man as with a woman. It is a detestable sin.”
Leviticus 20:13 NLT
“If a man practices homosexuality, having sex with another man as with a woman, both men have committed a detestable act…”
1 Corinthians 6:9-10 NLT
“Don’t you realize that those who do wrong will not inherit the kingdom of God? Don’t fool yourselves. Those who indulge in sexual sin, or who worship idols, or commit adultery, or are male prostitutes, or practice homosexuality, or are thieves, or are greedy people, or drunkards, or are abusive, or cheat people – none of these will inherit the Kingdom of God.”
I believe the above scriptures make it pretty clear how God views homosexuality. But there is good news. Jesus came to bring the gospel to sinners who are willing to repent and turn towards God, and receive forgiveness. If you practice homosexuality, you have an opportunity to turn to God and receive forgiveness because of the sacrifice of Jesus Christ on the cross.
We are all sinners, so you have no reason to believe you are being singled out or judged more harshly than anyone else. I admit that I am a sinner in need of forgiveness, and I want to live God’s way, not my own way. That means making sacrifices and giving up things that displease God. I would encourage you to accept God’s free gift of grace today; turn to Him and receive all that Jesus has done for you.
“If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” (Romans 10:9)
 I cannot do justice to my entire spiritual journey in this blog post. I have written a book, The Philosophy of a Mad Man, where I go into more depth about what happened.
 Matthew 7:7