Lord Over my Life

Lord over my life,
You are behind my every breath.
You know me more intimately
than I know myself.

With a troubled mind,
I cry out to you,
In a way familiar to all of those,
Who struggle with being human.

Lord, consider my predicament,
Search me and show me,
In what way do I err?
What must I do to once again
Feel your love, grace, and peace?

“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55:9)

You have created a universe,
So expansive and complex,
That no man could ever fathom
Its workings.

You see smaller than the microscopes
And bigger than the telescopes
And all this with ease – such ease,
That you can sustain a universe,
For ten thousand years.

“Great is our Lord, and mighty in power; His understanding is infinite” (Psalm 147:5)

Lord, I’m so confused.
Moral decisions trouble me
Personalities trouble me
Circumstances trouble me
I am greatly grieved in my spirit
For I know not what I should do.

I feel an oppressive canopy
Over my mind
A ceiling that is solid
That you are holding in place.

It must be you, Lord,
Despite what others say,
For you have shown me,
You are in control of all things.

“Our God is in the heavens; He does all that He pleases.” (Psalm 115:3)

Perhaps you have sent Satan to test me,
As I know others will suggest,
But you have revealed to me, Lord,
That you have power over all things,
The forces of good, and the forces of evil.

“The LORD works out everything to its proper end – even the wicked for a day of disaster” (Proverbs 16:4)

Perhaps it is for my protection
And part of a much grander plan
That you oppress my spirit.
Yet in this moment it troubles me
I fear I am acting incorrectly
That your wrath may be lurking
That you might unleash uncertainty
Or calamity, or disease, or distress
On my weak and troubled soul.

Do not punish me, Lord,
For I cannot act outside your will.
Please be merciful Lord,
Do not punish your own handiwork.

I am angry at this world, Lord God,
But I beg of you,
Do not let me ever be angry with You.
Be my hope and my security,
Hear my crying, see my tears,
And comfort me.

Assure me once again,
That you love me,
That everything will be okay.

“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28)

Lord, send an Angel,
To encamp around me
And protect me
From anyone
Or anything
That would seek to rob me
Of Your peace.

Give me wisdom,
Give me guidance,
Give me assurance,

Be tender,
Be kind,
Be merciful.

“Call on Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me.” (Psalm 50:15)

Let it be so. Amen.

34 comments

  1. Hi Steven, thank you for sharing this very moving and impassioned plea to the Lord. I’m sure you speak for many who are experiencing similar struggles, and have given them a wonderful example of how to cry out to God in humility, reverence, and hope. Despite all that is going on in your life, the Lord has definitely used you in this way. I will certainly be praying for you, my friend.

    1. I’m touched by your kindness, David – I so appreciate your kind words, prayers, and support. It’s amazing what a blessing it is to be able to reach out to God, and to my fellow bloggers, when I’m feeling low. Thank you so much πŸ™πŸ»

    1. Thanks so much, David. I’m doing a lot better, which is surely an answer to prayer. I was feeling pretty low earlier, but the Lord has comforted me this evening and I even laughed out loud at a video someone shared on Facebook πŸ™‚ Hope things are well with you, my friend.

  2. Steven, that was beautiful! It reminded me, actually, of a lot of the psalms. I think even Jeremiah had such words about his circumstances. I’m sorry to hear you are going through these battles. Please be encouraged. Praying for you! Sue

    1. Hi Sue. I’m so blessed by the comments and prayers. Thank you so much. If I didn’t have my blogging friends to reach out to during tough times I think things would be a lot harder. I really appreciate the encouragement from you and everyone else. My mood has lifted significantly so I’m thankful to God for that. I hope you’re having a good day. Blessings, Steven πŸ™πŸ»

  3. Beautiful. I fully empathize and I think we all go through these times. I have for sure. As I’m sure you will, continue in the faith and God will show you His wisdom in all you face!

  4. I always enjoy when we share poetry with each other because I do feel poetry can paint feelings in a more personal way. Through trials, we learn endurance, and we learn perseverance. Combined in His refinement for us, this situations can further our faith.

    Though there seems to be darkness around you, that may seem heavy at times, keep searching for Him, and keep asking for His burden and not the worlds. For His burden is light, and His yoke is easy.

    Peace with you, Steven!

  5. This is great! Very open and transparent, we need of this in life; in our Christian walk. If most would be honest, they have experienced these very same thoughts and feelings, or at least similar. Be blessed

  6. What a great image, “You see smaller than the microscopes And bigger than the
    telescopes And all this with ease – such ease” I trust the Lord who is so described will be there for you in all your distresses. Thank you for sharing this post.

  7. What a great post Steven. I can relate to certain things you wrote in this poem. I have been meditating on this scripture.
    “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
    he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.” Psalm 34:18.
    Hope it helps. Praying for you bro.

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