It’s always difficult to know whether to write about personal matters on this blog. I really don’t want to drift away from my focus on theology and there’s always the worry that if I speak too openly I might regret it. After all, my blog isn’t anonymous, and in the blogosphere you’re only ever a Google search away from anyone with an Internet connection.
On the other hand, the books I’ve written have been very raw and honest, and I do believe that when we’re open and vulnerable it allows others to relate and empathise with us, which results in the forging of stronger and deeper connections. The other thing is it’s easier to pray for people when you know what’s going on with them, and I really need your prayers. To a large extent, the readers of this blog are my church family at the moment.
I have two brief prayer requests:
1) Over the last few days I’ve been wrestling with some difficult emotions; fear, anxiety, anger, confusion. Some of these feelings are linked to a particularly difficult relationship I have with someone close to me, and who I feel has caused me a great deal of emotional pain. I’ve had a long struggle, and plenty of therapy, around this particular relationship, and still it troubles me on a daily basis. I’m almost tired of asking for prayer around this particular relationship, but no, persistence is key, and so, dear reader, as I continue to pray I ask for your help as well.
2) Being to some extent under the care of the mental health services in my area means I am constantly having conversations with people who are materialists and don’t really have a spiritual focus. At the moment there is an issue with my housing, and several people have given me very ‘worldly’ advice about how to deal with the problem (i.e. you need to fight!).
I’m so grateful to one of my readers (I want to protect their privacy so I won’t mention their name, but you know who you are) who recently left me a comment with these words from a Christian song:
You’re strong enough to win without a fight
As I head into a difficult week, with two meetings in which I will be challenged in relation to health and housing issues, I need to keep the sentiment of this line at the forefront of my mind, so that I act in a loving and godly way at all times.
If you believe in God and are reading this, please say a prayer that God will be with me in these meetings, that I will conduct myself in a way that pleases Him, and that the outcomes will be favourable.
Thus endeth prayer request number 2.
Thank you so much, blogging family, I love you! Have a wonderful week, and if there’s anything I can pray about for you, let me know 😃🙏🏻