I slept well last night but woke up feeling anxious. My circumstances are presently quite comfortable, but there is also a great deal of uncertainty. I have stayed in this budget hotel for the last two nights (tonight will be my third night). I have been praying to God for clarity and direction, and I know that God hears every prayer, so I am trusting Him to show me a positive way forward in the coming days.
One thing I felt prompted to do yesterday evening is set up a Donations page on this blog. What I am hoping is that kind donations from readers of this blog, coupled with sales of my books, will provide enough of an income to keep me from having to sleep on the streets. When I have the stability to do so, I’m going to focus on promoting my writing. I feel what I have to say, and what I have written about in the 400+ articles on this blog and in my books, is of value to some people. If this is true, I’m hoping some readers will help me out with some financial support in return. As I mentioned yesterday, I have already received two very generous donations from readers. This is hugely encouraging.
There is a strange atmosphere in the air at the moment. Everyone seems tense. London is ‘edgy’ at the best of times, but things at the moment feel darker than usual. I think the effects of everything related to Covid are beginning to really take their toll on society. Even though the shops are open (or, at least, most of them are in this area), I have a feeling that things will become even more unstable in the coming weeks. At present, I feel it’s best to live in the moment and take things one day at a time, and I’m mindful of this famous passage from the Sermon on the Mount:
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”(Matthew 6:25-34 ESV)
I hope to reassure you that if you’re feeling troubled at the moment, you’re not alone. Stay focused on the things of God, as this is surely the most stable footing to be on. Read the Scriptures and spend time in prayer. God is in control and His plan for creation will come to pass — He is absolutely unstoppable.
If you are in a position to lend me some financial support at this difficult time, please visit the donations page. Everyone who donates will receive a gift. Thank you so much!