Kindness

Just Be Kind

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Woe is me! Just kidding, but I feel like my blog posts are a bit like that at the moment. I hope you don’t mind that I’m sharing some personal reflections rather than much philosophy and theology at this time.

I went to the hospital today for a routine medical appointment related to my mental health condition. Wow. Things in London have deteriorated to the point of hopelessness. The only consultant I am allowed to see is anti-religious (not a great help when my whole life centres upon religion), the person who is supposed to be responsible for my ‘care’ didn’t contact me for eight weeks despite me leaving four messages for him to get in touch. When I told him today some of my very serious complaints about the mental health team, he laughed (this guy is the assistant manager!). I have also had no contact from the housing association about my accommodation problems. Maybe ‘woe is me’ is actually appropriate!

Tonight is the last night I can afford to stay in the budget hotel, from tomorrow I’ll be sleeping on the streets. As I explained in yesterday’s post, returning to the flat is not a safe option. In all seriousness, if anyone reading this has any experience of homelessness and has any helpful advice to offer, please send me an email.

I was outside the hotel yesterday and a bunch of school kids were attacking someone. It makes me sick. Fortunately, a police car drove past at the right moment and made some noise, and they ran off.

Yesterday (also outside the hotel) I spoke with a man who was selling items out of a box. The items he was selling were junk, but I bought a couple of things, some gel pens and tissues (neither of which I need) to support him. I wish in retrospect I’d just given him the cash, because now I have six pens and five packs of tissues that I don’t need. Maybe God will use them somehow. Anyway, this man said he HAS to steal to make money. No he doesn’t, and I told him he doesn’t. Being evil is a choice, and you never have to take it. It’s better to die in poverty than choose to do evil and use the excuse that you ‘have to’.

Earlier today, I saw two pigeons fighting, literally biting each other’s heads and necks over a scrap of food. It was a small round cheese biscuit. I just broke it in half and gave half to each pigeon. It’s really not ever necessary to fight, and I’m dismayed that animals are seemingly just as evil as humans (possibly much worse).

Every day you can choose to be kind and do good or you can choose to be unkind and do evil. From a human perspective, there is no compulsion either way, but you will only choose to do good if God, who is the controller of all people, wills you to do so. So pray to Him, and ask Him to develop your character so that your actions are closer to what is right.

I prayed for sunshine earlier because it has been cloudy here for days. The sun came out for a while earlier and as I type, it has just come out again, thanks be to God. I’m hoping for good weather if I’m sleeping rough, of course, and would appreciate prayers for my safety. Also, if you are in a financially fortunate position, please consider helping me out with a donation.

I’m going to try using a photo taken with my smartphone to accompany my upcoming posts as I will probably be blogging from my phone in the coming days. I have to be careful, though, as I want to keep my location private for safety reasons.

I remain optimistic, largely because I have a copy of the Qur’an with me, which I read every day. Remember that I have many books available exploring all the big problems and questions of philosophy and theology. You can find out more on the books page. Thank you for reading!

16 comments

  1. I hope everything will be alright for you. So much is happening to you and around you. Right now you seem to be having a very Job experience! Thank you for keeping us posted. I was wondering how you were doing.

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    1. You’re so kind, and I appreciate your comment so much! I read Job again recently. It’s such an amazing book. I have so many blessings in my life and I feel everything I’m going through is meaningful. Thanks again. Hope you’re having a good week?

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  2. So true ! Thanks for sharing!

    It is clear you have really good writing skills ! Have you thought about joining writing services like Fiverr, iWriter, etc and writing researched content for people.. there are a lot of native UK/US writers on there get paid around £15-£30 for 1000 words

    I have your Discovering The Qur’an book in my amazon basket list to read soon ! 🙂

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    1. Hi! That’s so kind, thank you so much! I have considered Fiverr and UpWork, it’s a really good suggestion. I came across a YouTuber who makes a small fortune writing on Fiverr Pro. I may well pursue that kind of avenue at some point – will give it some more thought!

      I really hope you enjoy Discovering the Qur’an, thank you so much for your interest!

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  3. Cool ! 🙂

    The other option is, if you get a lot of views to your site, to add ‘ads’ (if you want to of course) – but you need several thousands of views every month to be able to get real income. That is the pathway we are pursuing right now with our new blog site but are expecting it to take at least a couple of years to get a decent income.

    Writing for upwork, fiverr, etc may be quicker income – we do sometimes order writing services from platforms like fiverr so please let us know when you sign up ! 🙂

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    1. Thanks for these thoughts!

      Ads are something I’ve considered but am not keen on. Firstly, I think they cheapen the appearance of the blog. The quality of ads served by WordPress is very bad, in my view. Secondly, as you say, you need massive traffic to generate any kind of income. I don’t get anywhere near enough traffic. It’s possible that I would get more traffic if I switched my blog to self-hosted, but after researching this in depth and weighing up the pros and cons, I preferred the option of being hosted on WordPress.com. As you’re probably aware, self-hosted blogs can potentially get a lot more traffic due to SEO plugins and such. The SEO with WordPress.com blogs isn’t great. But WordPress.com has many benefits, such as community features, stability, and simplicity. And my current feeling is that I would like to always keep my blog ad-free so readers have the best possible experience.

      That is a very thoughtful offer that I can contact you about potentially doing some writing for you, thank you! Will see how things pan out 😊

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  4. I wonder if you can do Fiverr and iWriter while on Disability? I might look into it.
    As for your situation, I am so sorry. Prayers for your safety. Be careful about buying stolen goods and hopefully there are a lot of nice people who will help you out.

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    1. Thank you so much! Actually, I had no inkling when I bought the items that they could be stolen. When he mentioned he steals, I think he was talking about other things, though I can’t be sure. He had some kind of seller ID, though it could be fake, of course. Naturally, if I was aware they were stolen I would not have touched them!

      Are you in the UK? I know that on certain disability benefits you can earn up to £292 a month to supplement your benefits and they aren’t affected. You have to be in a certain group though.

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  5. Hello Stephen,

    I pray you are warm and dry when you read this. I have much empathy for you. I evicted myself from where I was living on New year’s Eve and have been camping in the paddock where my horse lives, and in various other bushland locations, in the hopes of being able to afford to register my car this year and thus continue being employed. I have what looks like chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia, which has prevented me from working more than ~15 hours a week since last August, and could not afford rent and car. Sold my last bit of furniture to pay horse’s vet bills, now am rehoming horse because, like me, he has health issues which I cannot afford not treat. Right now we are in the middle of massive east coast low, with floodwaters rising, so work is cancelled for the rest of the week, and I have been sewing makeshift underwear from sheets as everything now wet or very dirty.

    I am grateful to have an employer who understands and appreciates whatever I can contribute, and hope you can find one too! I have felt this whole time that God has had me on this adventure to bring me closer to a peaceful resting state. I hope you are seeing beauty amongst the refuse, and pray that you feel the expansion of the Spirit’s presence, beginning in your body so that whatever discomfort you feel will not overtake you with fear or tension, but be a gateway to the reminder of the divine within and without. I pray you will exert the bliss of resting in the providence God provides. Sending you a donation; thankyou for having the courage to use the gifts you have been given.

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    1. Dear friend! Firstly, I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been facing such difficult circumstances. Knowing a little about what it’s like not to have a warm and safe environment, all I can say is that I hope you do feel safe and protected by God.

      Thank you SO much for the generous donation, this will really help me a lot!! I pray that God will return it to you with extra — truly, you are very generous, and it is very much appreciated.

      I will send you an email to see if you would like a copy of my book ‘Ultimate Truth’, and if so, we can discuss formats and such. If you have no means to read an eBook right now, or aren’t particularly wanting a copy, this is of course totally fine — no pressure at all.

      I pray that God will bring unexpected blessings and pleasant surprises in your life in the coming days, and surely He brings us through these challenges to help us grow. God is all-knowing and all-wise!

      Thanks again ❤️🙏🏻

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