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A Change of Perspective

Friends, hello and glory to God! Yesterday, I posted about feeling suicidal. There has been a dark energy on the ward in recent days. Thank you so much for your prayer support – truly, God hears every prayer.

As you can probably tell, I’m feeling more upbeat today. Not much has changed, except I did some meditation today, read the Bible, and organised my room. My perspective has shifted somewhat.

The main reason why I ended up in hospital is because I was driven to homelessness due to a very challenging accommodation situation. If you’ve been following this blog for a while, you know all about it.

Even if I were to be discharged next week, I fear returning to the same flat would present just as many problems as I’m experiencing in hospital. So my focus has shifted to trying to be content in hospital (or wherever I am) and making the most of every day.

I hope you will forgive me if I share another prayer request. There are a couple of people of the ward who have threatened me with physical violence and so the last few days I’ve barely left my room. I have made a daily schedule that I would love to implement while I’m on the ward (involving Bible reading, meditation, exercise, and much more). Please can you pray that the ward would be a peaceful and safe place so I can have a productive time here and make a positive difference in the lives of others? That I will continue to pursue my calling and serve God faithfully, even while here?

This time in hospital has been a real experience. I prayed for God to perfect my character and He has subsequently put me through the refining fire. But thanks to your prayers, today I feel optimistic.

Just a reminder that my book Discovering the Qur’an is still free as an eBook over on Well worth a read!

May God’s grace, peace, and mercy be a covering over the lives of everyone reading this post. Amen.

6 responses to “A Change of Perspective”

  1. I am sorry that you are going through this. Safety should be a first priority for anyone and I am sad the hear that you feel otherwise in your stay. I wish you all the best and hope you get yourself into a more peaceful situation sooner than later.

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    1. Thanks so much for this. I really appreciate your sensitivity to the situation. Peace be with you.

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  2. Prayers for peace & safety 🙏💙

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    1. Exactly what I need, thank you, Krista! 🙏🏻💛

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  3. So sorry you’ve been dealing with this. I took a moment to pray for you and I trust you’ll come out on the other side with a testimony. 🙏🏾🤍

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    1. Thank you so much, Tee, your prayer support is precious and means the world. Thanks also for the encouragement. Peace and blessings 🙏🏻💛

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Hello, I’m Steven and I’m a philosopher and author based in London. My main purpose as a writer is to encourage discussion about God. I write about a wide variety of subjects related to philosophical theology, including divine sovereignty, the nature of God, suffering, interfaith dialogue and more. My mantra: Truth heals.

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