Perfect Chaos

Greetings, friends. All glory to the Most High God! I hope that you are all in good spirits.

It’s 3am as I type. I slept earlier but woke up a couple of hours ago and have been engaged in some prayer and Scripture reading. Today is a big day for me.

I have been speaking with the consultant about discharge. I was feeling very uneasy about the prospect of returning to the flat and made some efforts to explore other options. However, seeking alternative accommodation could have taken weeks, and there’s no guarantee I would find somewhere nice.

There was a general agreement that the best thing for me to do will be to return to the same place. Today is Thursday, and it looks as though I will be granted overnight leave from today, meaning I will be home over Easter weekend. This is truly a great mercy from my Lord and an answer to prayer.

Things had been feeling uncomfortable on the ward, and taking all things into consideration, I think that returning to the flat and trying to make the best of it is the least worrying course of action in my present circumstances.

When I was last at the flat (in December) things had become quite unpleasant, with my neighbour causing me significant distress. However, my hope and prayer is that things will have improved (or will improve) when I go back. Please join me in praying for this.

My plan for today is to use my leave to return to the flat this morning to see how things are. I will then go back to the ward and pack up my things, awaiting medication from the pharmacy. I will then get a taxi from the ward back to the flat, if the consultant is happy that everything is in order.

Things in life are rarely black and white and I have mixed feelings about today. While it will likely be a huge relief to be back in the community, things have been so hard in that flat and I will need the blessing and favour of God if things are to work out. At least I can potentially go to church on Easter Sunday and visit some of the peaceful places in my local community.

With God, all things are possible. May my focus always remain on being mindful of God, doing good deeds, remembering that the Day of Judgement is coming, and striving to live in a way that is pleasing to God. I pray the same for you who are reading this, and I thank you once again for reading my articles and for your prayers.