Perfect PEACE

Dear all,

I became aware today that my Christian friend Shenessay had prayed for me and it led to a deep peace coming over me. I am enormously grateful for her compassion. She has extensive experience of the mental health system and knows how broken it is and how hard it can be being on a ward for weeks, which can turn into months, and in some cases years.

Some of the staff feel I am ungrateful for their efforts. This is not true, it’s just that I feel I have a broader perspective on the system than they perhaps do, and being a patient is a very different experience to being a member of staff. It’s especially difficult when you repeatedly explain and demonstrate that your mental health is fine, and yet you are still forced to go through the cruel process of enforced medication and liberties taken away as well as the continual humiliation of being treated as though you have a brain disorder, which is what most psychiatrists believe is wrong with people who end up in psychiatric hospitals, but is a lie.

Sometimes it seems the system serves the staff but not the patients. They are able to go home every day and forget about the stress of the ward, whereas we are not. Sometimes it feels as though they feel more powerful by keeping their jobs and having patients ‘under’ them. But to me, all human inequality is bad.

Jesus demonstrated a life of poverty – he had nowhere to lay His head. And yet His Father always provided abundantly. As Christians, we should live as imitators of Christ, which is why I have explained to some people that losing the power they get from their jobs to serve Christ is a wise decision, even if it means homelessless. The difficult thing is that in the United Kingdom, controlled so much by the technology of the police and secret services, if a person tries to imitate Jesus by living nomadically, they are likely to be sectioned or arrested, though I believe they would have done nothing wrong in God’s eyes.

The problem is that UK law no longer finds its foundation in God. I’m quite sure things wouldn’t be this way in the UK if the authorities were wholly devoted to serving God, reading sacred Scripture and praying humbly and compassionately.

I am now being allowed outside for thirty minutes each day, which is a welcome blessing. Things on the ward have settled down a little this evening, but you have to take the rough with the smooth and be thankful in all circumstances.

There has been a lot of talk about the Garden of Eden and forgiveness. I am wondering whether God has now decided to forgive Satan and women for what happened there, which would be a tremendous blessing worthy of enormous gratitude to our Creator. It would however raise important questions about the Biblical narrative which many Christians believe is inerrant in its content (I mean for that huge cause of God’s wrath, as the Bible and Qur’an describe it, to have now been resolved).

In 2023, God revealed to me a short Scripture called the Book of Mercy which is an interesting read you can get as a free PDF on StevenColborne.com if you would like to. It contains words spoken to me by God.

During a conversation with a fellow Christian member of staff on the ward today (during my leave) some men walked passed and they questioned me about whether Jesus was black or white. The Lord brought to my mind that the most important thing is that He is light, which I think is rather beautiful.

I live in hope of a peaceful, equal, harmonious, God-centered world, but only if this pleases Him and He is willing. God has complete freedom and does whatever He will.

I continue to struggle with my personal identity, though things felt a little clearer today. Satan’s attacks have ceased this evening and he is walking around in sunglasses, and I hope he is chilling for good and Godly reasons.

Blessings to those who read this blog.

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Love,

Steven x